Friday, May 7, 2010

A Never Ending Saga

My doctor just called me back. My HCG number is still rising. Much too slowly to be a viable pregnancy but it is still to early for her to be able to do anything.I got the actual numbers from her. My number on Monday was 356. Two days later it was 599. Today, another 2 days later, it is 812.

This is very bad news and not what I wanted to hear. There is nothing she can do for me right now. The number is not high enough to see anything on a sonogram. It needs to be at about 1200 for that. So I have not actually miscarried yet. I have to wait this out. I go back in Monday morning for another blood test. A few things could happen. If my number has risen to above 1200 a sonogram will be done later in the week. It will tell me if this is ectopic or not.

There is still a chance I will miscarry on my own over the next few days. I'm losing hope for this. I do not know if I will be given medical treatment to terminate this pregnancy or not yet. I am really hoping to avoid surgery but whatever happens I will have to deal with. It sucks big time to know I am technically still pregnant and the pregnancy has no chance. I cannot do anything but sit around and wait.

I just want this to be over and done with and it just will not end. I have had horrible cramps all day but the bleeding has slowed down. I want answers and no one can give them to me. This is a nightmare that just will not end.

1 comment:

  1. I wish I couldn't say this, but I know how you're feeling. I hope that your saga doesn't drag on as long as mine has. Hopefully it's not ectopic. Let me know if you have any questions or want to talk.