Monday, May 10, 2010

HCG Number is creeping down

It was about 500 today. I was hoping for lower but at least is is going down. My doctor needs to monitor me until it goes down to zero. She thinks it will on it's own but said sometimes not everything flushes out and a D & C may still be needed. I told her about the non-stop bleeding and clotting and she seems to think that this will happen naturally. I hope so. I don't have another blood draw until next Monday. I really hope the bruises on my arm heal by then. I look terrible.

I am not as relieved as I thought I would be with this news. I guess because I still have to wait a week to know anything for sure and also because the confirmation of a pregnancy ending this way is just not good news.

I have to wait until my next period starts to start TTC again. Not what I wanted to hear but I know it could have been worse.

I also now have further proof my body hates me. I have a cold. A pretty bad one. I can't breathe because of the congestion. My throat hurts. I have a constant head-ache. I am exhausted. Physically and emotionally. The bleeding has slowed down again and the cramps are a bit better, but still there.

I know I have been whining alot lately. All these posts have been major downers. I am hoping to get my positive attitude and my energy back soon. Maybe next week. I did make it through work today, so my life is starting to regain some sense of normalcy.

I had no idea that a miscarriage could take so long.

1 comment:

  1. You have good reason to be whiney. :)
    Miscarriage takes a while. It will also take a while to recover emotionally and in some ways physically.