I haven't updated in a week because I have been a mess. I try so hard to stay positive but keep switching between believing I am pregnant and it will work out and just waiting for a miscarriage to start. So at any given hour of any given day I could be convinced of one or the other. Therefore, I have been unable to write a coherent blog post.
It started with some odd discharge I have been having. I wouldn't go as far as to call it spotting. It is cervical mucus that has some color to it. Kind of a yellowish brown. Very little and it happens in the morning after a bowel movement. It happened at 5 weeks 3 days. It happened again at 6 weeks 3 days and pretty much every morning since then. I called my doctor who said to call back if it got worse or if I had red spotting or bleeding or cramping. I haven't had any of these and I am "discharge free" the rest of the day.
On a better note I have plenty of symptoms going on now. I have slight morning sickness. It is better some days then others and seems dependant on my eating habits. If I wait to long to eat I start feeling sick. I haven't been able to finish my meals as I seem to get full very fast. I get gas easily. I am bloated all the time. My biggest symptom is exhaustion. It is persistent and is not going away. I still have not made it awake passed 9:30 pm, (sometimes earlier). Lastly, my breasts are so sore they can wake me up at night if I roll over in my sleep. These symptoms are reassuring to me. I am very happy to have them right now.
Today I am 7 weeks !!!!!! Crazy. I never thought I would make it this far and I'm excited today. Tomorrow is my first ultra sound. It is officially make it or break it time. I am so incredibly nervous and excited at the same time. If it goes well I feel like I will be able to breathe for the first time in over 3 weeks. If it goes well we will start telling people. If it goes well we will both let ourselves get excited.
PLEASE, PLEASE let it go well !
Appt is at 11:30 am Monday