Sunday, July 25, 2010

An update

I haven't updated in a week because I have been a mess. I try so hard to stay positive but keep switching between believing I am pregnant and it will work out and just waiting for a miscarriage to start. So at any given hour of any given day I could be convinced of one or the other. Therefore, I have been unable to write a coherent blog post.

It started with some odd discharge I have been having. I wouldn't go as far as to call it spotting. It is cervical mucus that has some color to it. Kind of a yellowish brown. Very little and it happens in the morning after a bowel movement. It happened at 5 weeks 3 days. It happened again at 6 weeks 3 days and pretty much every morning since then. I called my doctor who said to call back if it got worse or if I had red spotting or bleeding or cramping. I haven't had any of these and I am "discharge free" the rest of the day.

On a better note I have plenty of symptoms going on now. I have slight morning sickness. It is better some days then others and seems dependant on my eating habits. If I wait to long to eat I start feeling sick. I haven't been able to finish my meals as I seem to get full very fast. I get gas easily. I am bloated all the time. My biggest symptom is exhaustion. It is persistent and is not going away. I still have not made it awake passed 9:30 pm, (sometimes earlier). Lastly, my breasts are so sore they can wake me up at night if I roll over in my sleep. These symptoms are reassuring to me. I am very happy to have them right now.

Today I am 7 weeks !!!!!! Crazy. I never thought I would make it this far and I'm excited today. Tomorrow is my first ultra sound. It is officially make it or break it time. I am so incredibly nervous and excited at the same time. If it goes well I feel like I will be able to breathe for the first time in over 3 weeks. If it goes well we will start telling people. If it goes well we will both let ourselves get excited.

PLEASE, PLEASE let it go well !
Appt is at 11:30 am Monday


  1. Chris hang in there! I'm so excited for your U/S tomorrow and will be keeping you and your little one in my thoughts and prayers!

  2. Can't wait to see the ultrasound pictures of your sweet bean. I know it's hard to feel confident, but I hope you are assured tomorrow that everything is fine and can't start fully enjoying this pregnancy like you should. Lots of love and hugs.

  3. Until you get to that safety zone, it is going to be a bit of a rough trot, simply because you've been burned by your previous m/c.

    As I understand, some spotting is normal due to ongiong implantation but also because sometimes there is just a bit of lose material which eventually makes its way out. Unless you are bleeding bright red, experiencing pain or have a sudden loss in symptoms then it is likely to be normal. If you are ever in doubt and don't feel like you are being heard by your doc, go to your local ED/ER/whatever it is called where you are!

    Good luck with your u/s. :-)

  4. You girls are wonderful. Thank you so much!