Double Tag

I missed a few days of reading the blogs I follow and just noticed today as I was catching up that I was tagged twice and have me some questions to answer.

So first, from Baby Crazy Kiwi:

1) What do you look forward most to about being a parent?

I am looking forward to so many things. It is so hard to narrow it down. I just cannot wait to experience everything. Teaching a new person how to navigate through life. Seeing things through the eyes of a child. Watching them grow and learn and become a person and having a huge role in it. Experiencing the love a parent has for a child and seeing the love the child has for the parent. It's all so exciting right now.

2)What is your greatest fear?

I have alot of fears as well. The biggest being if my child gets sick or is in pain. I'm not sure how I will be able to handle it and it IS going to happen at some point.

3)If there was something wish you could 'do-over' in life what would it be?

I got really drunk and made an ass out of myself at my grandfathers 85th birthday party. I really wish I could do that night over!

4) When are you happiest?

Honestly I am happiest hanging on the couch watching TV with Rob at night.

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2nd Tag is from Lindsay at Waiting for that Positive:

1. If you could live anywhere else in the world where would it be?

I like NY because I really like seasons. Fall is my favorite. But I could go a bit colder. I am sick of being in a big city and I would prefer country life but not too far from civilization. Massachusetts or Vermont would be nice.

2. Who do you find inspiring (other than your family members)?

This is a hard one for me. I really don't know. I am inspired by everyday people in my life. But different parts of different people.

3. What was the last book you read? and What was the last one you read that you would suggest other's read?

The Girl who Played with Fire by Steig Larsson, but I would recommend his 1st book, The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo

4. Have you had any major injuries?

Yes, I tore my ACL , a pretty important ligament in the knee, while skiing. I had to go through 6 months of physical therapy, then have surgery, then another year of physical therapy after the surgery.

5. Do you have a favorite quote or motto?

Not really, but I am firm believer in "do to others as you want done to you" or any variation of that quote. You get the gist.

And a bonus....Because I really liked this question - Do you have a Favorite band/singer/artist?

Not right now. For years I was obsessed with Jim Morrison, Kurt Cobain/Nirvanna, Pear Jam and Nine Inch Nails. Recently I've been listening to country. A strange change I realize and even I don't know why - lol

16 Week Check Up

All went great. A bit uneventful, which I'm learning is a good thing. I have gained a total of 5 pounds so far. According to my doctor that is well within normal for 16 weeks so I am happy with it. I really thought I had gained much more then that - whew!

We heard the heartbeat on her doppler and she found it in 4 seconds. She is good, it always takes me a few minuted - lol. At the end of October I have another appointment for more blood work and I start to meet the rest of the doctors in the practice.

There are currently 4 doctors and one midwife. So far I have only met the mid wife. I have chosen to have a doctor deliver though so next time I go it will be with a doctor. I will eventually meet all 4 doctors and one of them will deliver my baby. I won't know which one until I get to the hospital. I think it's a great system they have and I'm glad chances are very good I will know the doctor that will deliver.

October 29th is my anatomy scan where we also hope to find out the gender ! 1 month and 1 day away.

So Happy With My New Clothes

I honestly have no idea why I was resisting wearing maternity clothes. Over the weekend I picked up the clothes my friend lent me and then went to Destination Maternity and purchased some more. I cannot believe the difference.

1) COMFORT. Since I got my BFP I have been mostly uncomfortable anytime I had to wear something other then sweats or PJ's. At first I was bloated and though my pants still fit the bloat made them just a bit too tight. Just enough to be uncomfortable and very aware of my stomach. The bloat went away and I had maybe a week before I realized my stomach was actually growing out. I posted the 14 week pic so you get the idea.

I have been just dealing with it. My pants, if low rise, actually still fit but this weekend I was at the point where I had to either go up a size or wear maternity. I was using the rubber band trick when I could and sometimes just unbuttoning at my desk. My routine would be to get home from work, run to my bedroom, practically rip my work clothes off, and jump into comfys. Today I lingered a bit in my maternity work outfit and if I wasn't afraid I'd get it dirty, may have worn them all night.

2) Looking Pregnant. The pants I bought I love for comfort mostly and the shirts I just love. They are comfy too but their best quality is that they make me look pregnant! I love this because prior to these shirts I was just wearing baggy, oversized shirts that really just made me look and feel fat. I was getting down on myself. These shirts are fun and I feel pregnant in them. (I never wore an empire waist before.)

I feel like I just passed a milestone I hadn't known about in advance. Don't get me wrong. I KNEW when I got pregnant I would grow, get large, and need new clothes. However, knowing it and actually going through it are totally different. I was getting depressed about feeling fat and not going to the gym for a work out or setting up a diet plan. I was getting anxious about getting too big too soon. I was getting worried about just how big I was going to get.

I think this is mostly because I was so aware of my growing by having my pants cutting into my stomach all day and my shirts clinging and touching skin they never used to touch. What a difference feeling pregnant verse feeling fat can make for a persons self esteem.

I am sure as I continue to grow I will go thru an "I'm depressed and huge" phase again but for now I have cured it with a shopping trip.

Maternity Shopping

Well you all saw the pic. It is time to bite the bullet and buy some maternity clothes. I was hoping to get another month out of my regular clothes but that is not going to happen. Only the low rise pants fit and even they are uncomfortable.

A friend of mine that just had her second baby is about my height. She offered me her old maternity pants. So sweet of her. I am driving out to Long Island tomorrow to pick them up and then buy some stuff at Destination Maternity. I need work clothes the most. I was really pushing it this week at work with my regular pants.

Rob is bartending . He has been the past 2 days and will be till Wednesday. It is so odd not seeing him AT ALL. He leaves for the bar around 4pm and that is when I am leaving work for home. We just miss each other. He doesn't get home till around 1:00 am and I can't stay up that late. It's very good money though and he still hasn't found a real job yet. (More on this another time). So it's a full week of not seeing him. It's just temporary but I do miss him.

So perfect weekend to do some shopping :)

Belly pics

I'm getting very big very soon. It is freaking me out a bit.

Here is my 4 week pic:

This pic was taken today at 14 weeks:

Oh Baby!

2nd Trimester !

I am 13 weeks 2 days today. I know there is some controversy over when the second trimester starts. I went through most of my life assuming it was 12 weeks. I never did the math. If you do the math it is 13.333333 weeks. So I am right about there :)

The blood work from my NT scan came back. Baby passed with flying colors ! I am very happy with the results and I won't be doing a cvs or amnio.

I am still waiting for my 2nd trimester energy burst. That doesn't seem to be happening. Other then tired and fat I feel pretty good and am considering myself very lucky as far as symptoms are concerned. Even my anxiety has decreased!

I have my anatomy scan on October 29th. I'll be close to 21 weeks. Seems a bit later then most girls but I can wait. I cannot wait to find out the gender and have some further reassurance that all is going well.

More to come. Now that I am more relaxed and less anxious and feeling better I hope to blog with more frequency again.

Out of the Closet

I had my NT scan at 12 weeks 2 days on Tuesday. I won't have the "official" results until I get my blood work back next week. However, the doctor and the ultrasound tech said everything was measuring correctly and they did not find any of the markers for Down Syndrome.

Baby was being a bit stubborn. The tech had to shake my belly to wake him/her up. Then it was TOO active and she had to chase baby all over my abdomen - lol. This was ok by us as we had a good 20 minutes of watching baby move all over the place on a huge TV. There has been alot of growth and we got a new pic. Here it is :

So it went rather well :)

The baby still hates the doppler but I know it is ok and I'll keep trying, but am not going to let it stress me at all.

After this u/s went so well we decided to announce to everyone. I called a few people and told my Dad it was no longer a secret. Then I announced it on Facebook so now pretty much everyone knows. I am not sure why I was so scared to do this. My first emotion was extreme anxiety. This quickly turned to excitement as I started getting replies.

Work knows too now and yesterday I didn't get much done as people came up to me all day. It was nice :)

I am feeling ok. Still get tired easily. I am feeling "Bigger". I look bigger. In my head it is now obvious I am pregnant. However, other people are telling me otherwise. Hmmm.. I guess I just look fat. lol. Oh well, I will show for real soon enough.