Thursday, August 12, 2010

Away for weekend

So this may have been the craziest week of my life. Rob and I are still are not over that misdiagnosis. I am still nervous, fearful, and anxious. I wish I didn't have to deal with spotting but so be it. I have to teach myself not to freak out over a little bit of anything. Just note it and report at next appointment. There has been no more blood but I have had that brown tinted CM I described in week 7. Same thing as then, just a tiny bit of tinted brown cm in the morning after a bowel movement. I had it yesterday but I am not at all worried about it. That being said, I hope it stops and goes away !!

Rob and I are flying to Cleveland for his family reunion today. The family has rented 2 summer houses on Lake Erie for the weekend. It is also to celebrate his dads 80th birthday. His dad was older then most when Rob was born. I'm looking forward to relaxing by the lake but I am scared that I am going to be so far from my doctor. I'm nervous something will happen and I won't be able to get home. I am not super close with Robs family. I like them. They are all nice. I just don't know them well because they all live so far away from us. We only see them about twice a year so I wouldn't feel comfortable freaking out with them. I am just really hoping there are no problems.

Symptoms seem to be easing up a bit. I still can't stay up very late and I am always hungry but nothing sounds appealing. Food just doesn't do it for me at the moment.

I get home on Sunday and Monday at 10:00 am is my first appt with the new OB practice. I have my ultrasound at 10:15am. I really hope everything goes well. I also hope I can find the little ones heartbeat on my home doppler by Monday. I will be 10 weeks so it's possible. I have found my own heartbeat in 2 different places but have not found that galloping sound of the baby's I am looking for. I know it's still early though and I did hear the heartbeat just this Monday so all is well.


  1. Awww Christine.... Seriously sucks... I think having lost one before just leaves a scar that is a little too easy to tear apart. That incompetant piece of work that called themselves a "doctor" certainly didn't help. :-(

    Let us know how your OB appointment goes!

  2. I hope you can have a good vacation. Hopefully you'll get the doppler working soon. I read on your DDC one post from a woman on another DDC that said holding the wand low on her pelvis was when she first heard the heartbeat. I know it is a matter of finding just the right place to hold it.